RIP my sweet Bendikins

by **troopersmommy** » Fri Apr 27, 2012 8:59 am

I am soooooo sorry for your loss. I'm reliving losing my Fuzzy Heart Kitty through your words. I know the feeling of "was it my fault, did I miss something, should I have done something else?" We all question ourselves when we grieve. But with prayers, God let me know it was just His Time, and each day has become a little bit better. I don't think it's been a year yet, because I don't want to figure that out. I buried my boy outside my window, and placed a small statue above him of a little rabbit (Fuzzy's nickname was Rabbit, after the Velveteen Rabbit). Having him near me, helps more than I could have imagined. I still talk to him every day - that helps. I put his pictures away for a while, but now I can look at them once more and think about all the good times.

The pain and sadness doesn't go away, it just gets a little "lighter" each day. Each of us has that "Heart" furbaby, that we hold on to forever, throughout life and death. He will always be with you. They trust us and know that we will do everything for them, without question and with the utmost loyalty. Don't worry that you might have missed something. We all know that you are an incredible AngelMom to your babies, and your babies know that too.

He is there, right now, "hovering" over you with his new little angel wings. :angel:

When you close your eyes you'll feel him. When you walk into another room you'll sometimes swear you see him, or feel him against you. They never really leave us, only their little bodies do. Their spirit is with us through eternity...and one day you will be holding him again.

by **critters** » Sun Apr 29, 2012 9:49 am

I'm so sorry for your loss. :cry:

by **Jean** » Sun Apr 29, 2012 12:06 pm

Dear Sasha,
I cried when I heard about Bendy. I have a t-shirt that I bought from your web site with his cute little baby picture on it.
I am so, very sorry for your loss.
Never forget that your little boy is always with you.
He loves you for all the care and love you shared with him.
My prayers are with you at this very difficult time./Jean

by **BendyMom** » Sat May 12, 2012 6:28 pm

Have had several vets I trust review Bendy's lab results and ultrasound
they agree it was NOT FIP
they say the albumin/globulin ration is way to high for that.

think it was intestinal lymphoma or some other fast acting awful GI cancer.

and I have now, officially, developed an ulcer.
I had been toasting Bendy with a shot of Bourbon every night, which helped my nerves too
none of that for a few weeks
and a lot less coffee
oh, i'm a joy to be around right now.
lots of stomach meds for me.

i still miss my guy every second of every day.

I took a week and a half off of work, an old friend sent me some funds so I could do that. It helped. But during that time I had several other cat emergencies to deal with, none lethal fortunately.

Now I'm trying to work again. we'll see how it goes.

by **Christine** » Sat May 12, 2012 7:53 pm

Please take care of yourself.

by **CarolC** » Sat May 12, 2012 11:09 pm

I wonder if you could drink Kava, it's acid-neutralized. Remember, Paul Harvey used to advertise it?

http://www.amazon.com/Kava-Instant-Coff ... B001EQ4UDM

or this low acid ground coffee

http://www.amazon.com/HealthWise-Colomb ... gro_text_b

by **janew** » Sat May 26, 2012 4:54 pm

Sasha,
I haven't been on the computer...I am so sorry you lost Bendy.
Thinking of you,
jane

by **Soph_ie** » Fri Jun 22, 2012 4:43 am

I used to be on these boards all the time but haven't posted in awhile. I visit every so often though and have just now seen your news of Bendy.

I am so so sorry to hear your sad news. I have tears. Bendy was, and is an inspiration to me. What an amazing cat. I loved hearing all about him and your relationship with him. You guys are so interconnected and intertwined on such a deep, loving level. What an amazing relationship. I too know that connection to your soulmate and the pain that brings when you lose that physical connection for a time. As you will know, it never goes away and you will always feel sad, but with time, you will gain strength and you will learn how to keep going. I hope and pray too that at some point your memories will hopefully bring you more smiles than tears.

I'm sorry your last moments with him were traumatic for you. But let me assure you that Bendy won't be thinking of it or remembering it. He is happy, healthy, safe and loved and will see you again one day. I am sure of that. Until then, take care of yourself and know that there are people out there (like me) who are praying for you and keeping you in their thoughts.

Love and hugs. Xoxoxoxo