Shortie is gone and I am scared.....
Posted: Mon Feb 22, 2010 3:57 pm
I came to this site the last time I was confused and scared. Shortie passed away this weekend and I am not sure what to do. I found comfort in this site when Shortie lost the use of his back legs in the summer.
I read many lovely words of encouragement and information helping me to deal with his handicap. Since his little seizure in the spring of 2009, he managed to regain his legs and was able to walk, run, jump and play like a puppy. I was so happy and we had so much fun these last 6 months.
Everything was going great and then on Thurs he seemed very confused, his legs were twitching, then he had a full-blown seizure. His legs & neck stretched out to the side in an uncomfortable looking way. His eyes were huge & looked scared, as I was. His front legs spread wide open & he could not stand up properly. I carried him to my bed & weird stretching continued for a bit. He was panting very hard but it settled down.
I called the vet who told me to keep close watch cause if he had another one it would be bad. He seemed much better & I was grateful. Then a huge bubble started under his chin & swelled up so fast I rushed him to the vet. After tests and needles the vet said he had another little seizer & his kidneys were bad, his neck bubble was from an abscess from the gums & it was strange that it came up so suddenly and so fast? I know this as I do not work & was with him 24/7 feeding, touching & cleaning, brushing, bathing… He was given antibiotics, anti seizer & others.
But when I took him home I noticed he was not all there. He did not recognize me. I put him on the bed; he stretched out a little & made some sad sounds. I was very frightened. He started panting again, harder & harder, wobbling his head & looking not good. I stayed holding him until his panting subsided and he was starting to fall asleep. The breathing grew softer & softer until I could not feel or hear him.
Shortie was 16 years old and I did not work for 7 years of it. He really did not suffer that much having one little seizure 6 months ago then the full one. I am so sad and lonely now and I hope he is in a good place and is happy. I am having so many doubts as to what I should have done. Maybe this & maybe that. I should have taken him to the vet more often. So many things haunt my mind. How do you go on? How do you deal with the questions, pain, feelings of guilt?
I will keep on reading the many wonderful happy & sad stories and thank you for all your help now & in the past. God Bless Sandie & my beloved
I read many lovely words of encouragement and information helping me to deal with his handicap. Since his little seizure in the spring of 2009, he managed to regain his legs and was able to walk, run, jump and play like a puppy. I was so happy and we had so much fun these last 6 months.
Everything was going great and then on Thurs he seemed very confused, his legs were twitching, then he had a full-blown seizure. His legs & neck stretched out to the side in an uncomfortable looking way. His eyes were huge & looked scared, as I was. His front legs spread wide open & he could not stand up properly. I carried him to my bed & weird stretching continued for a bit. He was panting very hard but it settled down.
I called the vet who told me to keep close watch cause if he had another one it would be bad. He seemed much better & I was grateful. Then a huge bubble started under his chin & swelled up so fast I rushed him to the vet. After tests and needles the vet said he had another little seizer & his kidneys were bad, his neck bubble was from an abscess from the gums & it was strange that it came up so suddenly and so fast? I know this as I do not work & was with him 24/7 feeding, touching & cleaning, brushing, bathing… He was given antibiotics, anti seizer & others.
But when I took him home I noticed he was not all there. He did not recognize me. I put him on the bed; he stretched out a little & made some sad sounds. I was very frightened. He started panting again, harder & harder, wobbling his head & looking not good. I stayed holding him until his panting subsided and he was starting to fall asleep. The breathing grew softer & softer until I could not feel or hear him.
Shortie was 16 years old and I did not work for 7 years of it. He really did not suffer that much having one little seizure 6 months ago then the full one. I am so sad and lonely now and I hope he is in a good place and is happy. I am having so many doubts as to what I should have done. Maybe this & maybe that. I should have taken him to the vet more often. So many things haunt my mind. How do you go on? How do you deal with the questions, pain, feelings of guilt?
I will keep on reading the many wonderful happy & sad stories and thank you for all your help now & in the past. God Bless Sandie & my beloved